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shalazga =@

Elyom i was supposed to go out with my bestiest bestest bestie in the whole wide world after my ultra-retarded exam this morning. Ba3ad galby I missed her tons 9arly alf sena mo shayfat’ha wla 7ata m7achyat’ha! Killa one of us 3ndha exams oo ma n3aref la we meet up wla 7atta ndeg 3la ba3ath nafs el2awadem nsolef =(

7beeby I miss you wallah el3atheem I miss you wayed ;**

elmohem,
she finished exams ams oo ana 5ala9t emte7any elyom noon oo seeda daggait 3aleha even though adree 3ndha cham sha’3la t5ale9ha before we meet up bs ena I was essentially savoring every last minute talking to her!

Stayed on the phone with her for like 3 hours layn 5ale9at oo marratny. In the process, daggat 3ly a certain colleague eli wayed nice oo sweet oo what not, bs is kind of a little too…erm…annoying. Ya3ny the type of person eli you’d like to know mn b3eed lai b3eed bs not close….lets call her Annoying Flana or AF

(ps: you know you’re a medical student if you understood that last pun ;Pp if not, then be grateful that you’re normal ;Pp)

elmohem, AF daggait 3ly three times oo 6la3laha waiting…chan tdeg 3la bestie oo while I was talking to someone yammy, chan my friend picks up oo galatlaha she’s on the phone with me and what not

sakkart my phone mn bestie oo re7t my lec (nafs eli feeha AF) oo salamt 3aleha hnak. Oo b3dain 5ala9 my lec oo sheft bestie **INSERT LOTS OF PASSIONATE HUGS AND KISSES HERE** oo ana oo ehya wagfeen waiting till I’m finished with some papers 3shan ne6la3 since ana mzarga mn my bro oo ehya mzarga mn her mom ;Pp

chan tyee AF

AF: dandoooon shfeech ma trdeen!
D: haa? Shino mared?
AF: I called you alf mara!
D: I was on the phone ma 6ela3lich waiting?
AF: embala bs elawadem tred tdeg!
D: bs ana 9akaita oo dashait el lec 3la6ool!
AF: still el2awdem tdeg lma people ydegoon 3laihom
**DEE ROLLS EYES**
D: mo bestie galatlch she was with me?
AF: ee…zain entaw shbitsawoon? Shaklkom 6al3een?
B: ee benro7 net’3ada ana 3ndy este8bal oo mzarga cz I havent seen dee in a long time
AF: ee wallah 7ata ana yo3ana…wain benroo7?
**INSERT SMILEY SURPRISED AT PERSON INVITING HERSELF M3ANA**
AF: wain betro7oon?
D: ma63am X
AF: laa laa maby aroo7 ma63am X
**INSERT NO ONE ASKED YOU FOR YOUR OPINION AND WHETHER OR NOT WE WANT YOU THERE OR NOT**
AF: 5anroo7 maki
D: maki la2
B: laa maby maki
AF: ee bas ana aby maki
**INSERT THIS IS ME NOT CARING FACE**
D: shfeech you know ana makel seafood
AF: ee may5alef order a salad or something
**INSERT GLBAY WAYHICH FACE**
B: laa ana maby maki
AF: ee bas ana aby!
B: shoofay, I promised dee ena we’re going to ma63am X since more than a month ago..magdar agolaha la2 al7en
**AF POUTS OO BOOZHA ALF METER…AND NOT IN THE CUTE WAY…IN THE LAA GLBAY WAYHICH LA ASOOGICH 6RAG WAY**
AF: laa etha btro7oon ma63am X ma ra7 ayee weyakom
**DEE GRINS AND DOES LITTLE VICTORY DANCE IN HER HEAD**
B: 5ala9 3ayal meshaina dee??
AF: ne6raw ill tell you what ana ma 3ndy shay bayee weyakom bs ma ra7 akel
**DEE STARES**
D: shda3wa ma takleen? E7na nakel oo entay t6al3eena?
AF: ee…mo gadra akel kilish I’m full
B: tawwich tgoleen bakel oo maki
AF: tadreen shino? Bakel bs shwaya mn your plates maby ma63am X maly 5elga
**DEE SCREAM EB RASHA MA7AD GALICH TYEEN**
D: ok yala meshaina 3shan I have to be home early oo bestie has to go back home early too
**DEE CRIES AT LOSS OF QUALITY TIME M3 BESTIE**
B: sayyarty wla sayyartich?
AF: whichever ana ra7 ag3ad wara anyway
**DEE RIPS HAIR OUT**
AF: bs entaw la t6awloon 9ot elmusic wayed tra y9eer feeny 9uda3…
**DEE’S EYES FALL OUT OF HER SOCKETS**
AF: ya3ny 8a9dy etha bt6awloon elmusic a5eth sayyarty broo7y
B: laa laa man6awel bs yala bser3a i’m running late oo we’re gonna have to speed
AF: laa laa may9eer we speed tra e9eer feeny do5a oo I get dizzy magdar
**DEE WANTS TO CHOKE HER AND WATCH HER TURN BLUE**

while driving:

AF: garga garga garga garga garga
**DEE AND BESTIE QUIET**
AF: garga garga garga garga garga
**DEE AND BESTIE QUIET**
AF: garga garga garga garga…don’t you think?
D: ymkn bs eli 9ar –
AF: garga garga garga garga garga
**DEE NEARLY CRIES**
AF: la7tha entaw ray7een ay ma63am X?
B: eli eb place P
AF: laaa? Ana 3abaly betro7oon mal avenues
B: we never said ena benroo7 mal avenues
AF: zain maby aro7 eli eb P..roo7aw mal avenues
**DANDOOON TETNARFAZ OO STARTS 3NAD**
D: ana aby aroo7 eli eb P
AF: bas ana ma7eba
B: wain aroo7 intersection bser3a
AF: avenues
D: P yala emshay P
AF: iffffff!!
**LAHA 3AIN TGOOL IFFFFFF!!**
AF: loo adree ena btro7oon hnak chan mayait!

I WANT A SHOTGUN NOWWWWWWWWWW!!

6ab3an we9alna elma63am oo ehya lail7een ga3tsolef m3 nafs’ha not giving anyone a chance to do so much as breathe!! And when the waitress comes for our order:

B: I’ll have this with beef
AF: laa ana ma7eb beef oo bakel mn 9a7nich e5thay chicken
B: 5ala9 I’ll have it with chicken and with extra mayo
AF: laa ma7eb mayo maby mayo
B: bs ana ma ra7 akla bdoon mayo
AF: 5ala9 e5thy m3 mayo mo ela athoog malech…dee shino bta5theen?
D: I’ll have this with mustard and mayo
AF: shakly mara7 a5eth shay
Waitress: for your drinks maam?
D: we’ll have 2 pina coladas please
AF: laa may9eer pina colada I’m allergic to pineapple

Shitgoloonlaha hathee?

Tekfoun shetgoloon!! =@

Then came our food…oo we ate…and it wasn’t like she had a bit of mine and a bit of besties…it was like essentially the food was split 3la three!! L2ana our usual ana oo bestie we order 3 dishes fa it was the same amount of food…bs chan ehya tyee takla! =(

Oo in the middle of the food, conversations t’3eth oo tlawe3 elchabd wallah…literally! Ya3ny I understand ena some people ma tloo3 chabdhom mn chithee convos at food BUT I AINT ONE OF THEM!! =@

B: enzain lets change the subject tara dee lay3a chabdha
AF: 9ij? Ee wallah…bs 5agoolich shlon 9ayer shakla oo loona chithee…

Oo b3dain lma 5ala9na akel:

AF: uff! Akelhom y’3eth!

**DON’T FUCKIN EAT IT!!**

oo kany al7en raddait elbait…la I had fun…wla I spend quality time with bestie…wla kalait 3adel cz lail7eeny yo3ana

oo foug hatha oo thak….MERTEFE3 THA’36Y!!

loo ga3da eb baitna wayed akramly =@

shalazga?! =@

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daloo3at dandooona

This weekend has been eventful weekend for me…not good eventful...for the ~~vast majority~~ all of it.

Bs for some reason, instead of crumbling and breaking down like I’ve been getting used to lately, I didn’t. I sat myself down and realized that it has been doing me no good whatsoever. I realized that a day gone is a day never coming back, and I realized that it’s a shame to watch my life fade away into such pitiful memories.

Fa lma Thursday came and the weekend was giving me hint at how the rest of it would be like, I felt myself slowly slipping.

And when I woke up to a very unpleasant Friday morning, I thought to myself NO!! I will not wallow in self pity. I will not ruin my day. And even though I was in a completely crap mood, this post and your comments managed to transform my day into a good one ;**

Then I woke up to a very very very crappy Saturday, like you wouldn’t believe. To a Saturday that shattered that last sprinkle of optimism and flushed that last shred of hope down the toilet.

And that’s when I decided to make myself some promises. Some promises that I know I wont be able to fulfill straight away, but that I hope I will have enough willpower to accomplish.

So what did dandooona promise herself to do?

I WILL put myself first, before anybody.
I WILL NOT allow anybody to do so much as reduce the curvature of the smile on my face anymore.

I WILL be more bitchy to people.
I WILL NOT allow anyone to do so much as yhez sha3ra feeny anymore.

I WILL treat people the same way they treat me.
I WILL NOT be the better person anymore.

I WILL do whatever I damn well please.
I WILL NOT ath’3a6 3la nafsy for others anymore.

I WILL study harder and become a better doctor.
I WILL NOT allow that to occupy every last aspect of my life anymore.

I WILL do something new everyday.
I WILL NOT allow myself to settle for a killer routine that will serve nothing but kill every last talent in me anymore.

I WILL expect less and less from people.
I WILL NOT be disappointed by their behavior and attitude anymore.

I WILL be my only best freind.
I WILL NOT expect anyone else to support me anymore.

I WILL lose weight.
I WILL NOT be a person who is weak infront of food, out of all things.

I WILL live for myself.
I WILL NOT compromise for others anymore.

I WILL live alone…
if that means that I WILL NOT surround myself by hypocrites anymore.

I WILL trust my instincts.
I WILL NOT give people the benefit of doubt anymore.

I WILL lose faith in people.
I WILL NOT trust people so easily anymore.

I WILL come back to this post whenever I feel down.
I WILL NOT allow myself to back down on these promises.

Tadroon laish?

L2ana…

I WILL be daloo3at dandooona.

and

I WILL NOT allow anyone to take that away from me anymore! =D

“No one really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy”
-Unknown

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a7la weekend!

a7la 9ba7 5air 3la a7la bloggers beldenya! ;**

I hope you guys have an absolutely lovely weekend filled with joy and love and serenity and unforgettable memories and amazing experiences!

"Sing like no one's listening, love like you've never been hurt, dance like nobody's watching, and live like its heaven on earth"
-Unknown

MWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! ;**

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emotional rollercoaster

And there’s absolutely no other way I can put it: emotional rollercoaster

This post has been in my drafts 9arla a couple of weeks. First I thought I was pmsing fa I opted for not publishing it straight away 3la asas I’m all hormonal and stuff, bs loo agolkom until this very second I’m adding sentences to it, ymkn ma t9adgoon…

Its not that I’m upset…and its not that I’m happy either. Its not that I’m going through problems (more than normal anyway) and its not like I’m living the carefree life either.

Its not that I’m mthayga, oo its not that I can sleep at night either.

Its everything. All at once. In one go. Going at a speed of 100 emotions per minute.

Its that I can move from ecstatic to furious to excited to depressed to overjoyed to sobbing (mo crying) to happy.

To genuinely happy. To an emotion I haven’t experienced in a long, long time.

Crap, why am I crying as I type this?

I was never an emotional person before. Bl3aks, lots of people used to praise the fact ena I had such a good grip on my emotions oo always thought with my head before my heart. But in these past few weeks, I think I have probably cried more than I have cried in my entire life altogether.

I don’t know what happened and I’m not liking it. Not one bit.

Malait malait malait…wallah el3atheem malait from trying to keep up with my emotions and with my mood. I can handle myself being upset all the time, and I like to think I can handle myself being happy all the time (though that really is a hypothetical situation that never really happened before)

Bs this emotional overload is too much for me to handle.

I’m overwhelmed by my own emotions.

By the time I’m through with this post, I’ll probably go blog-hopping and comment here and there and make jokes and what not…only for theegat el5elg to revisit me with every page I load.

I don’t expect that to make sense tara…

Tadroon shino the worst part? I actually see it coming all the time, but its like I have no control over it! Ya3ny I know ena I’m over-reacting to something, oo ga3da athayeg nafsy 3la wla shay, but its like a person is taking over me and messing with my head =(

Isnt that called schizophrenia in some countries?

I’ve come to realize that if I’m having a bad day, chances are everyone else is having a good one, fa I always hold back on how I feel 3shan la a3aker mazajhom…oo if I’m having a good day, then it logically follows ena everyone else is having a bad day oo I also hold back because I don’t wanna rub it in and because I need to be there for them…

I’ve also come to realize that a good day is followed by a crap night, and a great night is always followed by a shit day…

And the days when I have a great day and a great night, I know right before my head hits the pillow with my smile across my face and not a care in the world that night that I can kiss the rest of my week goodbye.

E7sas ‘3aby…

Shagool sha5alee loo at7acha 3an halsalfa lai bacher ma5ale9…loo agolokom shimsawya bl awadem, you’ll feel sorry for them.

No scratch that, you wont. No one has been putting up with me, so none of them deserve any credit…

E7sas ‘3aby when you’re there for everyone and no one is there for you...

(well…except that certain someone…thanks for putting up with me all this time when I know you don’t even have to ;**)

Tadroon shino? I think ena gemt mn kithr ma my emotions are zooming past me, gemt I feel two feelings at once. Ya3ny right now mathalan, I’m simultaneously glad and angry at someone.

Is that even physiologically possible?

I’ve been told I give really nice teddy bear hugs by lots of people, bs tadroon shino?

I am in desperate need of a teddy bear hug right now…I want someone to wrap their arms around me and hold me so tight, and tell me that everything is gonna be alright. I want someone to protect me from myself before keeping me safe mn everything in the outside world.

5ara…my crying has turned into full blown sobs…I guess this is my cue to get the hell out of here =\

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off to bed

Did you ever wake up in the morning and feel like today is going to be a completely crappy day?

And you can hear every single cell in your body telling you to go back to sleep just to avoid changing the day from bad to worse?

And then you force yourself to get out of bed and try to convince yourself otherwise?

And then you realize that as every minute passes by, your day keeps taking shots at you oo chenna el3eed oo you’re still trying to convince yourself ena it’s a phase oo t3ady?

And then hit ba3ad hit ba3ad hit, you realize you’re worn out even though you’ve only been awake for a couple of hours and you still have the whole day ahead of you?

I’m going back to sleep.

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my fairytale <3

as narrated by Stand-Alone ;**

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ana ma artha!

Ams I was driving 3al 5aleej at around 6 or so…

(la7th-taw ena kan 3ndy emte7an elyom, oo ams I was driving 3al 5aleej? La7ath-taw? Tra yhemny enkom tla7thoon ;Pp)

elmohem, I’m driving bl middle lane oo mo daysa...ymkn 60 or 70 cz kint close to elcamera eli 3nd marina oo ako eshara jeddamy ba3ad…estaw3abtaw elwath3 shlon?

Ok.

Yammy bethabt some car madree yaris tida wa7da mn hathela el cutat le9’3ar oo mashya lbnaya yammy eb nafs l speed hamm mo daysa even though she’s 3al left lane l2ana like I said fee eshara in like 100m.

Wara hal car, ako wa7ed eb infiniti oo ytareeeeeeek oo hernnnnn oo araf oo zeft 3la rasa inshallah..goloo amen =D

Elmohem ana al7en parallel to the girl oo estaw3abt ena el2a5 ela ela ye6la3 menha oo ydesh jeddamy!

6ab3an ana o ehya nafs lspeed fa mako majal ydesh jeddamy aw e9eer parallel to me a9lan…

the only way that would happen is if I actually BRAKE 3shan A9EER WARAH fa yegdar ydesh jeddamy

mestaw3been elwath3? Tra yhemny ena testaw3boon elwath3 ;Pp

elmohem while I was in the process of estaw3ebing wat el7arakat el bahlawaniya oo elflasher eli ga3d e6ega meant, he zooms to the right-most lane oo b3dain swerves jeddamy to go to the left-most lane 3shan e9eer jeddam lbnaya, 7elo?

We9al el2eshara gably, oo lman ana we9alt yamma bl lane maly, wela he rolls his window down oo egool the following:

“5ara 3laich oo 3la wayhech…entay ma t3arfeen tsogeen?”

6ab3an la agoolkom wayhy shlon 9ar…mo shocked…mo appaled…mo in absolute bewilderment

3ad ana wa7da my temper kilish mo shay…bs honestly mn kithr ma kint ma9dooma…I couldn’t react…I couldn’t speak or move or even breathe.

I actually had to go back in time 3shan I double-check I heard things correctly

And then I realized that the most intense feeling I was feeling was DISGRACE.

DISGRACE that I drive in the same street as this 7uthala
DISGRACE that I live in the same country as this 7uthala

But most of all, DISGRACE that I belong to the same country as this 7uthala.

Now, adree eb7ukm my very limited free time I don’t go out as much as I would like, bs ya jma3a…

SHINO GA3D E9EER EB DEERATNA?!

Since when was it okay to scream out profanities in public in the middle of the street?

Since when was it okay to use this kind of language for such a trivial situation?

And most importantly,

Since when did all the men in this country lose their decency?

SHINO GA3D E9EER EB DEERATNA?!

Meta we9alna halmustawa elmun7a6? When did we hit rock bottom?

But most importantly,

WHAT WENT WRONG?!

Look, ana mo ga3da agolookom ena I’m an angel oo I don’t swear or I’m never around people who swear or what not…bs I know exactly WHEN to watch my language, WHERE to watch my language and WHO to watch my language infront of!

Ya3ny seriously, lets just assume ena even etha ana eli kint ‘3al6ana on the street out there, does that give him the right to speak to me like that?

SHINO ANA ASHTE’3EL 3IND OBOOK?!

ETGOOLY WA5RAY BAWA5ER?!

5O ESMA SHARE3 OBO RA3Y ELINFINITI, MO?!

Ana 7addy 7addy lma akoon sayga agool 7asby allah 3la ebleesk or 3asa rabby la ya36eek el3afya…

Laa oo mara my mom heard me say it oo galatly don’t say it its mean!

Elmohem, im slightly drifting off the subject hnee, bs ya jma3a bas aby an answer!

SHINO GA3D E9EER EB DEERATNA?!

I try to stay as far away as I can from politics and serious discussions and kil shay y’3eth along those lines l2ana basically, I came to the conclusion ena nothing is changing!

BAS LAI META?!

LAI META THINGS ARE GONNA STAY THE SAME?!

Ymkn its because el wayed eli amthaly sakteen oo detaching themselves from halswalef that things are moving from worst to wortest!

First of all, it starts with people ga6een their kids 3al 5adam chenna there's no tomorrow! Zain etha malkom 5elg 3yal oo tarbeya oo mas2oleeya, laish etyeboonhom? Elmafrooth neyyat ay wa7ed lma eyeeb yahel tkoon ena he adds something productive to the world, ena he brings someone who can make a difference in the world...

A9LAN MA Y3AWERHOM GALBHOM LMA EGE6OON 3YALHOM LEL5ADAM?!

Oo al7en ente5abat coming up oo zeft and wat not 3shan yred nafs elmajles ysawy nafs el5abba eli ysaweeha kil mara oo ygoolk 8anoon man3 e5tela6 oo 8anoon zeft 3amal elmar2a 3shan lma eyoon 7uthala nafs ra3y elinfiniti ye6l3oon bara in public, nekteshef ena they were brainwashed into ideas that they probably don’t fully understand and follow blindly, which to a certain extents is both sad and pathetic, since they really have no parents or what not to guide them...

oo ye6la3 blshare3 egool weee hathy bnaya a9lan el7ukoma tgool ena may9eer teshte’3el after 8

ethan I am more capable than her

ethan she's not equal to me

ethan she doesnt have the same rights as me

ethan I'm superior to her

ethan if I can drive, then she obviosuly cant!!

SHINO GA3D E9EER EB DEERATNA?!

Madree madree shino ga3da a5arbe6 oo shino ga3da agool or if what I’m saying is making sense on any kind of level (oo I really have a feeling it isnt) bs wallah ana me7tara oo menba6a chabdy…

oo laykoon 3abalkom mn ra3y elinfinity l2ana I rolled up my window and turned up the song on my radio…l2ana ana ma yhemny ra2y el7uthala eli nafsa,

Bs l2ana 7al deeratna 9ar yza3el…

yza3el lai darajat ena I have tears in my eyes now as I type this post

7al deeratna 9ar ybachy…

Imagine a scenario for a minute ena there is some guy from wherever visiting Kuwait oo ga3d blsayyara eli jeddamy

Oo yesma3 chithee 7achy

Oo ya5eth hal impression 3al Kuwaitiyeen oo 3al Kuwait weya lai deerat’hom..

Terthoon?

Terthoon ena fee yom esolef m3 his freinds oo egool I’ve been to Kuwait once and there, they use profanities on the streets 3ady?

Terthoon 3aleha?

The irony is ena elmaw8ef 9ar weyay akthar men mara...I say I'm from Kuwait oo elperson eljeddamy egool really? I/My freind went there once and said x, y and z about it...

Terthoon 3la deeratkom?

Terthoon 3al Kuwait?

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