ble5!

ble5!

Its weird that this is the URL to my blog, yet i've never actually told you about it.

ble5!

The one, truly expressive word to convey how everything has been lately.

ble5!

Now, you might have heard the word around, which is really funny because I made it up with a friend of mine one day about five years ago, but then I was surprised lately to see people using it and finding it on their bbm status updates...

so yeah...
its copyrighted...
you're welcome ;Pp

shino ya3ny ble5?

ble5 is a situation when everything that could possibly go wrong is going wrong...when you're sick of everything...when you've reached rock bottom...when you've done everything you can do only to find that you're attempts have been futile all along....when there's nothing else left to say...

except ble5!

hehe =)


I hate sixth year.

I'm so overloaded with work, its not even sad anymore. Its just pathetic. I dont have time to do ANYTHING. Between oncalls, lectures, presentations, PBL's and case reports, wallah el3atheem and I kid you not, I have to CREATE time to squeeze in my showers. I dont even have time to study. Its just work overload. Assignment wara assignment, oncall wara oncall, case wara case...its just ridiculous.

I'm drained...and honest to God I'm having second thoughts about this whole medical school shit.

Am I really prepared to spend the rest of my life like this?

Is this really worth it?

Madry...


I see the smile on my patient's faces, I hear them yad3only, and it makes me happy...it makes my day.

Bas sometimes, like less than an hour ago when I got back home from my night duty, it becomes very difficult for me to drive, to keep my eyes open and to get back home in one piece...

bas the most difficult part has to be keeping my spirits up.

I'm sick of this...

and I've been sick of it for a while now oo sakta...cz if you know me, you'll know that I stay in denial for a looooong looooong looooooooong time before admitting something or even talking about it...I'm one of those people who bottle things up until I explode.


So why am I bringing it up now?

it could be cz i'm lacking the social support I need
it could be cz i finally stopped to a9adeg 3umry
it could be cz i'm hating the specialties halsena
it could be cz its been six freaking years oo ana lail7en eb mukany, while ghairy twathaf oo tera8a oo tzawaj oo yab 3yal

it could be because its that time of month where i'm PMSing...


bas I keep telling myself that i'm nearly there...just near the finish line...just a little more to go....

and i'm no quitter...and I sure as hell wont be one after six years of taking allllll this shit...


But if there's anything I know for sure, its that what's always been keeping me going, and whats still pushing me forward right now, is that in know that one day, i'll make my mommy proud of me...oh so very proud of me =)

That in two years time bmashe2at raby, she'll walk around saying hathy benty eldctoora dana oo ras'ha marfooooooo3 oo lebtesama shaga elwayh =)

After all, thats the least I can do for her after everything she's done for me, dont you think? Oo even then, mara7 aredlaha even 1% of it. She deserves so much more.

So even though i'm overworked and underpaid, and even though i'm having all these doubts and second thoughts, i'm gonna assume i'm PMSing (cz ironically it really is that time of month) and thats where all this garbage is coming from...

or maybe cz I got a few comments over the past few weeks eli 3awraw and I realized that I missed you guys way WAAAAAAAY too much;**

sam7oony 3al g9oor...i'll post and comment whenever I can =)

but until then, I shall now go finish my lunch (thats right...lunch) then go lay my very tired body on my bed and hope I catch a few good hours of sleep before the cycle begins again tomorrow morning!


i miss spilling like this...

and i miss you guys wayed...so much more than you could imagine or than I ever thought I would ;**


ps: someone needs to ask the chinese porn site and the viagra company spamming my blog to stop advertising here ;Pp